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Spike was too young, I kind of did my own thing with him and Dru and Darla a lot. No sex but plenty of violence. I never really liked the Master but Darla was pretty attached.

She is also an actual ex.

I knew about Darla. She lets people know.

But Drusilla, really? She's... Peculiar.

She was a little less peculiar back then.

Things got out of hand once at the master's place and I was passed out after drunken sex somewhere and couldn't protect her.

She was never the same again, and Spike never forgave me.

So, someone...

Oh. I see.

I should be less jealous of her and feel sorry instead.

I came very close to killing the people who did it, which is how I ended up in prison.

You don't have to be jealous of anyone, Buffy.

How long were you in prison for?

It's hard to help it sometimes. Between Darla and Drusilla. And everyone who wants you.

4 years, got out on good behaviour even though I didn't deserve it. Charismatic white guy who was avenging a wounded girl? I got a slap on the wrist compared to what some people get for much less serious crimes. The justice system is so full of bullshit.

I don't want anyone but you.

I understand that you wanted to avenge her. It's s bit more difficult to imagine you in such a gang to begin with.

I only ever want you too. You don't have to hide from.me.

I was a very different person then. I grew up feeling powerless and suddenly I found a way to get power back and it just rotted my soul.

I hurt the people I care about. I don't want to hurt you.

Edited 2018-07-07 11:46 (UTC)